What is fun?

I havent been blogging much lately. Too busy! Work, college and sleep. Literally. I barely have time for anything. Not even my friends. I feel lonely, tired, sad and ugh. But it's not like I want to over work myself, yknow?! I don't really have a choice. Money-cut! I hope my friends don't take it the wrong way. If I can, I really want to spend time with them. I need to spend time with them. But, priorities.. My weekly allowance isn't enough for me to survive. :| I'm saving up not just for a short-term thing.. But it's a long-term thing. I really hope my friends would understand. :|

I'm honestly dying. I'm so tired, exhausted, and I want to cry. It's like, I don't deserve this life at all. I'm so tired of everything. Everyday, the moment I wake up, the only thing that's on my mind is to quickly end the day, and go to bed. I don't look forward to fun-things anymore.. WHAT IS FUN?

Sigh. At this rate I probably don't care about many things anymore. All I wanna do is just get through Uni, leave the country and make myself happy.

I also realized that I've been working too much, and with everything that's going on, i'm losing focus on my studies. I realized how badly ive been screwing up my attendances, quizzes, and worst.. My group experiment today. I know I couldve done better, I just didn't try. I'm so disappointed with not just at life, but ultimately myself..