Don't get me wrong, but I'm really grateful to have friends like Iman, Mei and Nick. They may be really far away or they barely have time for me, but when we meet, it's as though things did not change. But there are other friends too, whom I consider as my best friends, but what hurts the most is knowing that they don't feel the same way back.

I've said this countless times.. I know I'm not the type of person who deserves "best friends" like them. Neither do they deserve to have a "best friend" like me because clearly they deserve better. It's just sad when the first person I look forward to talk to when something comes up, are them, but I'm always the last person to find out stuffs from them..

I thought we were all equal. I thought we could share about anything and everything in the world.

Goddamnit.

Wake up, Elle.

And welcome to reality - where things dont go your way..... all the time.



On a different note.. I miss my old friends. Not exactly old like a few years old, but it feels like it kind of old.. I kinda wish things would go back to how it was - before we all started fighting and hating each other for all the petty reasons possible. I miss our 24/7 Skype conversations, Whatsapp messages and our lunch/dinner dates. Things were really fun back then. I wish it didn't have to end so soon..

Oh well.