Lost.

I feel so lost. 

I don't know what I'm doing at times.

And at times, I feel like becoming the old me again. But I'm not sure if I want to be that person again. 

See what I mean? Lost.

I want to be happy. Worry-free. I don't want to be emotionally disturbed all the time.

It's so so so so tiring to be extremely happy at one point to suddenly feeling like the whole world'a crashing down on me. 

I don't want to be so negative all the time, thinking everything is bad and will be bad. I know I shouldn't but I can't help it.

I don't know who to blame. I don't know what to do.